Saturday, 30 June 2012

I Still Love You ♥

"Damn, its hot today" I took off my dress shirt and stuffed it into my bag, along with my jacket and tie that had come off before the meeting started. "you would think that after living here for 5 years you would get used to the heat" I mumbled to myself as I got in my convertible. 

The radio automatically tuned into the nearest station, 76.9 HITSfm and the song The One That Got Away started blaring through the speakers. I'd heard the song before on the old radio at work, but had never actually gotten to the chance to really listen to the lyrics.

Summer after high school when we first met
We made out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
Like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you

In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on 

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
It's time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse

But in another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The one that got away

All this money can't buy me a time machine (Nooooo)
Can't replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)
I should've told you what you meant to me (Whoa)
'Cause now I pay the price

 I slammed my fist into the off button before pulling over on the side of the desert road and putting my head in my hands. "Get over yourself Keenan. Your not going to see her again, and she was never meant to be with you. Cut this shit out." 

the truth was, I would never get over that girl. She was my soul mate, my other half, but fate just wouldn't let me have her. 

I started up the engine of my car and turned around, heading towards the bistro.

 I walked into the bistro and ordered a coffee, before heading outside to drink it. Without paying attention I took a huge gulp "DAMN" the hot coffee seared my tongue. I tossed the paper cup and the remainder of the coffee into the garbage. 

I looked out at the sun setting beyond the red sand hills, and the memories were so vivid it hurt.

 Riding bike together, swimming, lounging at the beach.  All of the good times  we had together. I cursed under my breath. "Your not making this any easier on yourself Keenan, its been 5 whole freaking years. Why cant you just forget her?" 

A couple of people glanced at me, the crazy cop and I thought for a minute that they had heard me talking to myself. I turned away and realized that they were looking at me because I still had my shirt off. Typical. 

At home in the shower the ice cold water sent shivers through my body. The shock of the cold water on my hot skin tried to imitate the way I felt when I was with her, touching her, kissing her, but it was never the same.

 I crawled into bed and looked at the few pictures of me and her I had on my desk. 

"Becks...." I whispered. "I still love you".

Friday, 22 June 2012

This Can't Be It...... Babies 18 & 19 Part 1 of 3

Becks P.O.V

The bridal shop was beautiful!
I was so excited to be here, preparing for one of the most important days of my life

My sister Eliza's wedding.

Wedding dress shopping was a big deal for Eliza and she needed back up. That would be me. The maid of honor. Eliza also insisted that her back up needed back up, so here I was with my best friend Aimee Ryan (Amiee is a challenge mother too! Read her challenge here!!)

"How 'bout this one Becks?"
Eliza stepped out in a poofy ball gown, with pale blue trim

"I dunno.... I think that something a bit more form fitting would be nicer on you"
It did look beautiful, but I wanted her to look a bit more mature. I mean, she is older than me.

"does that have pockets!!" Aimee looked appalled! Your wedding dress can't have pockets!!!"
That settled it for Eliza.
"ok next one "

Eliza stepped out from behind the curtain in a gothic looking corseted dress with lace print and of course, pale blue trim.

"how about this one?"

" I like it, but it seems a bit too sexy for a wedding don't cha think? "
It was a nice dress but I could tell that Eliza and Aimee were not that impressed.

"hmmmm" Eliza inspected her self in the dress
" it makes my butt look big too"

Aimee giggled and I glared at her.
"ok next!"

Eliza tried on about 5 more dresses before she tried on one that Aimee picked out.
She stepped out in the lace dress with an open back and I started to tear up.

"it's so beautiful!! If only dad could see me now, all grown up"
Eliza dropped to her knees and started to sob.

Aimee was quite alarmed but stayed seated as I kneeled on the floor next to Eliza.

"shhh Eliza, it's ok. I'm sure he can see you and he is probably crying too" I slowly talked to Eliza.

Tears were rolling down my face... every time I think of them, broken memories flash through my head



The whole time something in my head is saying
'But this can't be it!'

" your right Becks, I need to be strong "
Eliza and I stood up just as the consultant walked into the room.
"so dear," she said "is this the dress?"
Eliza looked at me and I smiled, while Amiee gave her a huge 2 thumbs up

"yes. This is my dress"

Aimee and I cheered and we left the bridal shop with smiles on our faces.


"you know... I could really go for a hot dog right now" I was in the first trimester of my pregnancy and I was starved.
Aimee laughed and put her arms around my stomach.
" you or the baby?!?"

Eliza laughed as well and we headed into the food stop to get something to munch on.

When I finished eating, I asked Eliza something I've been wanting to ask her for a long time. Something that has been bothering me since Eliza came to my house that night.
"Eliza, what happened to mom and dad"

Eliza's looked at me, her bright blue eyes like sad little puddles.
" are you sure you want to know?"





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but first......

you must wait... more >:D

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Saturday, 16 June 2012

A Special Request and a Moment of Regret

Becks P.O.V
"So, can you tell me why you brought me here?"
"I already said, there is someone here I want you to meet"
"yeah, but who!"
"you'll see!"

We had been sitting at the picnic table outside of mcdonalds for about an hour, and all I could think was 'gah! I left Jed home alone with 4 toddlers! is the house still in one peice?'

Eliza could see that I was worried
"dont worry! they'll be here soon!"
"thats what you said an hour ago!

I was cut off by Eliza seeing something

"Look! he's here!!"
"finally..." I mumbled under my breath

"sorry sweetie, I had to work late"
 the man walked over to the picnic table and kissed Eliza

"is this who we've been waiting for?" I asked
"Becks I would like you to meet my fiancee Darwin"

"Hey! nice to finally meet Eliza's sister"

"ELIZA! you never told me that you were engaged!"
"well, last time I saw you, that was the last thing on my mind"

"Anyways, thats sorta what we wanted to talk to you about," Eliza started
we walked to the nearby park bench and sat down

"we were wondering if you wanted to be the maid of honor at our wedding"
"REALLY? are you sure?"
"of course!"

after that, we talked about wedding plans until it started to get dark.

"oh my gosh! I've got to get home!" I quickly stood up and said good bye
"see ya later!" Eliza shouted
"see ya!"

when I got home I went straight to the nursery only to find the 4 toddlers, and Jed, sound asleep.
I laughed to myself, before getting in bed.


In the morning the noise of children playing outdoor woke me up.
I sat up, wondering if I was dreaming. I didnt have any kids that age.
"JED!" I yelled out, still half asleep

sure enough, Jed came running into the room
"whats wrong? are you ok?"
"Im okay!" I laughed, Jed worries too much

"whats up with the kids outside? who are they"
Jed looked at me really confused

"Becks, thats the girls. I aged them up this morning after waking up on the floor in the nursery. I didnt think you would mind."
"What, no thats ok, they were a bit of a handful as toddlers"


Sure enough, the four girls and Ali aged up beautifully

Ali is of to start her own horse breeding buisness

and the girls, well you know what they say. "girls just wanna have fun!"

Ali moved out after the quads birthday and took the horse and Calista jr with her. I was sad to see them go, but i just couldnt resist those puppy dog eyes Ali gave me when she asked me to take them.

Everyone got a goodbye hug and off they went to Appaloosa Plains.

This was my first baby to ever leave town and it was breaking my heart, but there was something else on my mind too.

"Becks? are you ok?" Jed came and sat on the bed next to me.
"Its just, Ali is the first baby to ever leave.. and I miss her."

the hesitation in my voice caught Jeds attention.
"But that's not why your so upset"
Damn, he knows me to well.
"Its just... I regret not getting married"

"We did get married Becks, remember?"
"yea but I want a wedding"
"A wedding?"
"yeah, a wedding"
Jed pulled me close to him, the curve of my body fitting seamlessly into his
"you can have whatever you want my queen"

I rolled over and kissed him passionately.

as our make out session got more heated, clothes started coming off, and I panted
"lets do this"


"Okay girls, I need your help"
my four girls looked on with intent eyes
"We are going to the pet store to get a new dog!"
"really?" Bailey looked at me like my head was screwed on backwards
The store was full of beautiful animals. Cats, dogs, birds and turtles were everywhere.
I was so overwhelmed that I just stared

Baileys scream echoed through the store
"can we have this one?" Bailey was hugging a large fluffy border collie like dog with purple and blue fur.
the dog licked her face and she laughed. Caitlin petted her large fluffy head.

just as I was about to say yes, when Cassandra and Karle came up with another dog. This one was a male dog with rainbow fur.

"Can we have him?" all four girls looked at the two dogs, and then back to me.
"What do you think of having both?"

The girls cheered and we returned home with 2 new dogs.


When we got home, the girls came up to me again.
"Mommy! what are we going to name them?"


Thats up to you my lovely readers!!!
There is a poll on this blog for the girl dogs name (I already have the male dogs name picked out!!)
the name that gets the most votes wins :D

Hope your enjoying your summer so far!
~Amiee :)